Feel's Like Forever.

It feel's like we have been here forever. Like are life is here, When we moved I promised myself I would never call here "home". The more I think about it this really is are home. WE have made a family here. I think we call it are home is because of what we have been trough here. We have made some mistakes here. Well I know I have. I don't know if everyone else has I just think they would have.

With my dad gone we have been "changing" a lot. My mom told my dad on Skype that I'm not the girl has when he left.
Now I don't know if this is a good or bad thing. I hope it's good. I feel like I've become my own person. Which may not be a good thing. I feel like I'm fighting by myself. It is very hard for me.
I just feel like my mom isn't really there for me. Like this.

I wasn't acting myself. My mom knew there was something up. So she get my youth leader to take me out and see whats up. OK well I'm happy I got to talk to my leader but I would have loved it if my mom would have asked me herself.
My mom hasn't been the same with my dad gone. She is just always busy with meeting and her job and friends. There just isn't any room for family. When I post this she is going to probably get mad at me, But she did say this blog is where we are free to put are feelings. Well mamma this is how I feel.

Still Going...

We are still going . I don't know if we are going strong or not. We are doing good so far.
It is very hard. We have been trough a lot. We have become stronger. We have made a few good friends and a few enemy's along the way. We have kept in touch with are dad.
Friends have helped a lot. I always thought I had to change to have "good" friends. I was wrong I've been working on being my self, Speaking my mind. Some don't like that... Some do.

My youth leaders have seen me "grow up" "get stronger".
I love my youth. They have helped me trough a lot.